I’m so happy and grateful that I found the food blogging world. You are all so fantastic! I’m already completely addicted to your blogs and keep adding new ones to my blogroll. Thank you for all your lovely comments, they make me so very happy!
Okay, let’s start this post off on a boring serious note: I’ve got some emails and comments with concerns regarding the amount of calories I consume in a day. Thank you for showing support and offering me your time and advice. I greatly appreciate it and am not at all offended by your concerns! I thought I’d just state this for the record though: Eating the amount of calories that I do feels like a really lot to me. In fact, I am convinced I am counting my calories wrong because I can’t see how everything I eat amounts to just barely 1 000 calories most of the time. Today I have eaten so much that I am sitting here feeling stuffed to the brim right now (and unfortunately, the thoughts of guilt are flooding my mind). I’m trying to get up to at least 1 000 calories a day this week but it’s hard! I feel like if I’m eating that much, I’m never going to get in shape. As many of you know, I have some eating issues but I have also gained weight this past year (I am by no means underweight!) and I know that I would benefit from loosing a couple of pounds and toning up, it would make me feel more happy and content with myself. I know this sounds like something bad coming from someone with “ED tendencies/behaviour” but I know where my “happy medium” is and I’m a couple of pounds above that weight. My “happy medium” is not my lowest weight nor is it an unhealthy weight, it is a perfect healthy weight for me and the weight at which I know I feel the most comfortable and satisfied with myself.
What is so frustrating to me right now is that I seem to be standing still with my weight. I’m exercising more than I usually do, I’m eating healthier than I have in a long time but nothing is changing! Contrary to many others, I do not have a very active life. I try to exercise as much as possible, I go to Bikram Yoga a couple of times a week and go for powerwalks or short jogs but other than that, I’m hardly active at all. I don’t even have a job to get up and go to (I’m a freelance writer) so mostly I’m just sitting or lying around all day. That would also explain why eating the amount I do feels like WAY too much for me. If I’m just sitting around all day then eating three meals a day and sometimes snacks is A LOT! And I know everyone’s going to pull the “muscles weigh more than fat”-card on me (my mom always does anyway), but if that were the case then I should notice a difference in the way my clothes fit – no? Well, they’re just as snuggily-snug as they have been since I gained weight. I don’t know what I am doing wrong! I feel like I can’t even eat “normal and healthy” without gainging weight.
Anyway, on to… food.
Breakfast was a bowl of fruit (orange, apple, berries) and a slice of carrot raisin bread. In other words, the same as yesterday, so no picture of that.
3:05pm Lunch. The exact same as yesterday (obviously I had to do a repeat of this amazing lunch), I took a picture because I bought pretty napkins today and made the whole ensamble look all snazzy. Anyway, these are oats made with water with about 5 frozen strawberries mixed in, a dollop of peanut butter and on the side a slice of carrot raisin bread with a smudge of peanut butter and sliced banana. This is the best lunch eveeeer!
4:15pm Snack. I wasn’t hungry after lunch, but I kept thinking about the vegan oatmeal creme pies in the fridge. I made about seven last night (and there’s about a zillion oatmeal cookies left) and my mom and I each had two last night. So for a snack I pulled the remaining three out of the fridge and had two… I’m still working on convincing myself it was worth it.
I also had a plain oatmeal cookie. I made part of the batch into “mini” oatmeal cookies figuring I could have them as a “mini” dessert now and then. They’re good, not very sweet since I cut out more than half the amount of sugar but they’re nice and soft which is what matters! :) I’m having a hard time figuring out how many calories I should count for these though. I figured about 150 kcal for the oatmeal creme pie and 50 for the mini oatmeal cookie? Ugh, I wish I knew more exact.
6.15pm Dinner. I went for a quick run and came home to make dinner even though I wasn’t at all hungry. I made my standard salad (lettuce, tomato, sundried tomato, carrot, white beans, alfalfa sprouts) and topped it with a tablespoon of hummus instead of my standard tahini sauce. And I had two of my favorite miso rice crackers on the side.
Total calories today: ~1 108 kcal
20 minutes powerwalk
35 minutes jogging
60 side crunches (30 each side)
20 dumbell lifts (2 kg weights)
Tomorrow afternoon is Bikram Yoga again! Wohoo!
Web news: Tina (fabulous name!) over at Carrots n’ Cake is having a Pure Bar Giveaway! And I want to win because I’ve never tried them!
Question of the day: How much do you exercise on an average day?