Just a quick hello to say we still don’t have internet at la maison (the house). It is driving me completely insane! I have work to do and I want to blog to get my eating back on track. Sadly, I’ve had such a messy week of eating since I got back from surfing and I stepped on the scale this morning and just about burst into tears. I feel really sick, my stomach is a mess today and I just feel so disgusting. I fool myself into believeing I’ve got this eating-stuff in check, when really I don’t. I just want to eat normal, like I did while I was in France. Why is that so hard!? Why do I have to fall right back into binging as soon as I get home?! Yes yes, I know I am unhappy, I know this is probably the number one reason for my binging, I’m just so sick and tired of everything. So, so sick and tired! I cannot take this anymore. I want this to end, I want it to stop right now and just go away. I want it to stop pestering me and filling up my mind with these thoughts. Ugh…
Sorry for the gloomy post but I’m in a pooey mood today for several reasons, most of which were just mentioned above.
Cross your fingers I’ve got internet at home soon.