Hello lovlies! Thanks for all your comments about my blogging dilemma. I think I’ll just try to update every once in a while when I have something worthwhile to post. I’m glad you enjoy my blog, it means a lot to me to hear you say that!
Now, for today’s dilemma. For some reason my weekends always turn out to be such a mess food-wise. I always overeat bigtime during the weekends and this has been a nasty pattern of mine for a long time that I cannot seem to break! During the week I generally do okay, but then the weekend rolls around and I decide to indulge a bit, only problem is that a bit always turns in to way too much and then I repeat the same mistake the next day…It’s horribly frustrating and I hate it so much I cannot even tell you.
Anyway, here’s some of the eats from the past couple of days.
I had breakfast and then ran out the door to go and meet a co-worker in town to go over the fashion shoot I am doing on Monday. She’s photographing the shoot so I went over my ideas with her.
I had a cup of green tea during my meeting with my co-worker. After our meeting I met up with my best friend and we went for another cup of tea to do some catching up. She’s been in Italy for two weeks and we haven’t seen each other since before I left for my surf trip!
I got home really hungry and made my usual wrap-lunch and then for dinner a few hours later I had my standard big salad. I believe the evening contained some more ice cream and peanuts as well. No photos though since it was all the same as before.
I had pretty much the same breakfast again on Thursday and then headed out the door to run to six different showrooms to pick out clothing for the photo shoot on Monday. I was stressing bigtime and running criss-cross around town. I’d booked meetings with each office but because the meeting at the first office was delayed about half an hour I had to rush to the other offices to make it to them all before they closed. Phew.
When I found out my meeting was delayed I went and grabbed a chai latte with soy milk, I haven’t had one of these in ages and I love them. I took a little walk in the park while drinking it before heading back to the showroom.
After more than four hours of running around town I got home absolutely exhausted and hungry for a big salad. I’m out of veggie burgers so I threw some veggie balls in my salad this time instead. It was good! In the evening I just had an apple and a handful of fresh Swedish blueberries for a snack.
On Friday morning I woke up and was surprised by mom who had bought some good stuff for breakfast since it was my namesday. Here in Sweden we’ve got namesdays, every day it’s two peoples namesdays listed in the calendar and on Friday was mine!
I keep blabbering about that I love the breakfasts I was eating in France so this is the second time mom has surprised me with “French” bread so that I can re-create that breakfast.
It was all so good and filled me up nicely. The tomato is from our own “garden” that we have on our porch and the blueberries my mom picked in the woods the day before. Swedish blueberries are the best. I cut the “Copenhagener” in half and shared it with mom for breakfast-dessert.
The not-so-good thing about Friday was that my mind was in “overindulge”-mode. What makes me so frustrated is that this breakfast was good, healthy and satisfied me to the point of actually supressing those feelings of wanting to overindulge the rest of the day. Despite that, my mind kept telling me to “have a treat” anyway because I’d thought all week long that I could “treat myself” on Friday. So, even though I wasn’t even feeling like having a “treat” I did… and that escalated into a big binge, followed by the usual feelings of guilt.
I woke up this morning feeling agitated and anxious about the previous days’ bad eating and had a late breakfast.
It started well, but despite my feelings of anxiety over yesterday’s nasty eating… I went and did it all over again. So here I am now, hating myself like never before for repeating yesterdays mistake all over again. I don’t know what the heck is wrong with me.
And to top things off, my gym card ran out on Tuesday and I have been really bad with exercise ever since. I’ve pretty much just done my 100 crunches each day and not much more (aside from a bit of running around town).
Please let tomorrow be a better day, I can’t take this anymore.
Question of the day: What do you do to turn things around when you’re stuck in a rut?