About me

I am a 21 year old girl living in Sweden. I’ve worked at magazines as a writer, web-editor and fashion editor for a couple of years now and am currently working freelance. As of right now my life is pretty complicated and I’m trying to figure out what the next step is.

I love reading blogs about all kinds of things that I am interested in and during the past couple of years I have gained an extreme interest in nutrition, health and wellbeing. I am considering going to school to become a nutritionist. I read a lot of blogs about health and fitness and feel that they are helping me establish what “normal” eating habits are. I am a vegetarian but I’d say I eat vegan probably about 80 or 90 percent of the time. The few things I eat that are not vegan are the occasional treat that my mom has made or candy that may contain dairy products.

I started this blog in the hopes of it helping me gain some kind of healthy relationship to food and natural eating habits. In 2007 I started having trouble with my eating and developed what I can only assume is some kind of eating disorder. However, I was never diagnosed and it is hard for me to establish on my own whether or not this is, in fact, an eating disorder. Some days I think I don’t have a problem with food at all but most days I realize I do and that my thoughts around food control my whole life and keep me from doing the things I want to do and socializing in a normal manner.

Something happened a couple of years back, I started obsessing over food and seeing it as something bad and something I was not allowed. Things got out of hand and I went from being a completely normal healthy weight to weighing well below what was healthy. Last year my habits went from restricting to restricting-binging and I started gaining all the weight back. I am now at about the same weight as I was back before all of this started, but I am by no means as healthy mentally as I was two or three years ago. I struggle with my mind every single day and try to tell myself that it is okay to eat, it is okay to have fun and to treat myself to things. It is a constant struggle and I still panic about a lot of things, like going out to eat with friends or being in a situation where the suggestion of eating sweets or junk food comes up. For me, I can’t have a treat without feeling some level of guilt about it or beating myself up about it after my indulgence.

Needless to say, I have a long way to go but I am taking baby steps and I hope that I am on a new path now that will lead me to a happier more fulfilling life. With the help of this blog, and the strength I feel I am gaining by reading all the healthy food blogs I’ve come across, my hope is that I will be able to gain healthy eating habits and a happy relationship to food.

Please feel free to get in touch with me if you have any questions or just want to talk. We can all use a helping hand or an extra little nudge sometimes to remind us that we’re not alone and that everything is going to be okay.

11 thoughts on “About me

  1. Hey girl! I am so glad that you found my blog! I married a guy from Sweden and lived there for almost 2 years. We moved back to the states a few months ago and may be moving back to Sweden in April if a job in Charlotte, NC falls through. And I must say that I am in love with lösgodis! Nothing compares! I miss it so much since I have moved back. If we move back to Sweden, we are moving to Uppsala. Which region are you from? You can email me at halek88@hotmail.com. I would love to hear from you and I am looking forward to reading your blog :)

  2. Thanks for stopping by my blog! I look forward to following yours, so I’ll add you to my blogroll :)

    Keep your head up–disordered eating is tough to overcome. You just gotta keep fighting & stay strong.

    Peace,

    Erin

  3. One thing that may help when you are faced in situations where there is unhealthy foods and you don’t want to feel the “pressure” of giving in is tell people you are on a restricted diet by doctors orders and you can’t eat that! Then people won’t pressure you to eat things you shouldn’t and you don’t have to feel guilty about it. My twin sister is diabetic and my Dad was diabetic and when people offer me cake, cookies, candy, etc.. I say, Oh, I would love to but I have pre-diabetic risks (which I could because of my family history) so I can’t eat that, but thanks anyway! Now, no one asks me anymore and I don’t have to worry about it. Maybe that would help? It is hard when you have food issues when you need food to stay alive! Best of luck to you!! There are a few Vegan web sites I go to often. One is http://www.havecakewilltravel.com and the other is http://www.veganyumyum.com Both have beautiful pictures and everything is Vegan.

  4. Hey Tina!! Thanks for the comment on my blog :) I really enjoyed reading your story as well…you seem to have traveled through hell and back, but realize you hafta work on it to get where you want to be! I know you’ll get there, you seem like a very strong girl :)

    Hope to see you around the blogs, I’m adding you to my blogroll!

    Michelle

  5. i found your blog through inner wellness- cant wait to read more- this is fantastic?

    so did you grow up in the states and move to sweden with your family? or were you born in sweden? sorry annoying questions i know!!

  6. I just found your blog though Dlish and I am addicted! You have such interesting stores and such great colorful food! I can’t wait to keep reading! I just put you on the blogroll!

  7. Hey girl, I just read your story and if you need to talk don’t hesitate to email me at jesslikesithot@gmail.com!

    I see that you’re eating around 800 cals today, and I want to tell you that you can eat A LOT more than that…….the minumum we are supposed to be eating is 1200! MINIMUM! I am in no way preaching, but would love to help out or be here to talk if you need it!

  8. Hey there! just found your blog and wanted to say that I can completely relate to your relationship with food. I was diagnosed when I was 18 and though I’m at a healthy weight currently, I struggle on a daily basis with annoying binge/restrict cycles. I wish you the best and it looks like you’re making progress. Keep it up!! :)

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